Being 50 coincided with the pandemic and my only child being ill for a prolonged period of time. She is better but my sadness lingered. ‘The Life’s Change’ explores ageing, sadness and single parenthood through a series of self portraits.
Set within the constraints of the home (reminiscent of lockdown) domestic elements create the backdrop – the hearth, bedspreads, computer screens and mirrors.
In ‘Mother and Child’ I am holding where she used to breastfeed at a time when my fertility has ended and I am unable to help her.
In others, screenlight (evocative of candlelight in classical paintings) becomes a domestic twilight where anxieties are magnified. Making this series of self portraits although uncomfortable has helped me come to terms with the last two years.